on a random note,
i love all my friends. emphasize friends, not acquaintances. i’m glad that this holidays let me catch up with the handful who matter to me and i’m happy. they make me feel like i really dont need to bother about how others think of me or judge me and mke me feel blessed, that i can face the world with these friends (and my family too).
I dont need friends who ignore, who give me silent treatment, who dont reciprocate especially if i’m putting in my effort, who are passive and take no initiative to maintain our friendship, who put me down (and make me feel like i’m worthless), and who take me for granted. I don’t deserve that and i dont think i want that. So i’m holding on tight to whoever I have now, and i’m not going to be pushed around by those people unworthy of the effort i’m making. I’m trying to be a better friend this time :)
